My wife asked me the other day if I still thought about Iraq often. When dont I think of it, was my reply...

I once read a story about an Arab reporter, Lebonese I think, who found it difficult to not think of Iraq when not there on assignment. He had a beautiful wife and daughter, but after being home for awhile felt the pull of Iraq and returned.

Thats the awful cycle those who have been there can fall into.

I too long to return to Iraq yet dread it at the same time. There are times when I feel that perhaps I should have died there and then immediately feel guilty for feeling that way. I too have a beautiful wife and family.

My concern is if I have to return Ill be too far removed to ever come home.

Ive found that I dont relate much to men who havent served there especially in a combat capacity. Hopefully that will pass in time. Im not any better than they are, Ive just seen and done things they havent.